The more I try to run away

The more I try to run away from you and your memories the harder it gets for me, every single thing reminds me of you, it seems as if i am entangled in your life, every little thing reminds me of you, even the grimmest lyrics of each song that you liked reminds me of you. The songs that you loved have become a memory for me to live by even though I hated them all but now i listed to them over and over again falling deeper and deeper in my thoughts of you and your memories. Some lyrics of a song are so piercing that they make it hard for me to cope with myself and bring a tear to the eye thinking why it never worked out for us.  An excerpt of a song I recently came across brought back all the memories that I had tucked away in the vault of my heart never to be unlocked ever again.

Her Zulam tera yaad hai bhola tu naheen hoon
Aye wada faramoosh main tujhsa tu naheen hoon

Sahil pe khare ho tumhain kya ghum chalay jana
Main doob raha hoon abhi doba tu naheen hoon

Chup chap sahi maslehatan wakat k hathoon
Majbor sahi wakat se hara tu naheen hoon

Aye wada faramoosh main tujhsa tu naheen hoon
Her Zulam tera yaad hai bhola tu naheen hoon

Muster kyon mujhay deekhta rehta hai zamana
Deewana sahi un k tamasha tu naheen hoon

Aye wada faramoosh main tujhsa tu naheen hoon
Her Zulam tera yaad hai bhola tu naheen hoon