Life goes on

I know you can do a lot better than me because you are more content, more poised and know how to show yourself off to the world but me on the other hand, Im crumbled to pieces, my entire world shattered down upon me the moment I realized what had happened and how none of us tried to put the pieces back together, I guessed a lot of things, interpreted the wrong meanings, thought I was making the right choices, thought I was just looking out for you, thought I was being the better person by letting you go to your free will. You flew away like a caged bird and never came back to thank me, flew to the more beautiful things this world has to offer, found new places, found new people, maybe the ones that were better or maybe the ones that only saw you for who youre not. I on the other hand sit there just looking at the gaping hole where you used to be, where you had nested your home. Maybe I had forced you into being caged, maybe you never really wanted to be here and all this while I was thinking that you and I have met for a reason..

I sit here zoned out from the rest of the world, not knowing a single thing happening around, drowning out the noises of the outer world just so I can hear you calling me.. just calling me once for a change for the sake of the old times, for the times when I mattered one bit to you.. All but a lost cause this is because even though you know this page exists yet you never come to read this. My only prayer now is to drown myself in my own tears and just repent on the mistakes that I made and you endorsed.. A blank page this life has become, no sense of direction, no clue as to where to go from here.. but I guess life goes on... dont know for how much longer but this life goes on....