I guess I'll never find out

Ive done something I think I might regret later on, I read today somewhere that "If you continue to live in the past, your life is history". It might be a quote for many but to me it has real life meaning, just reading this one line confused me as to what am I doing.. Is it the right form of love? Or am I just being rigid about not accepting the reality and facing the truth. Is it mere stupidity that I am faced with or is this what true love is all about, not letting go of the one you love. I wish I knew the answer.

If this is called making your life history then what is true love and commitment to only loving that one and only? loving only one person per life and not even thinking about someone else.. I guess ill never find out and just pray that she comes to me one day.. 

I did something today that I might regret later on in life,, I pushed someone away from my life today someone who I couldnt do justice with and all she wanted was to be near and dear to me but does that go against my love? She couldnt take the place of the girl I love the most so I pushed her away from my life.. I know I didnt do the right thing but if I had kept her close to me would that not have been injustice to her? Would it not be jeopardizing her love and infact mocking it? I told her plain and simple that I still cant get over my past.. I dont know if I did the right thing and I guess Ill never find out.