I Dare Again

I thought everything was finished, it had all come to an end and there was no way back for me to rekindle on all the mistakes, look upon the past and try to mend what I broke but seems like the time has taken its toll on me and it has left you unaffected yet again.

I thought we had buried the hatchet and I had done all I could to be the best man I could be but I guess my best just wasnt good enough for you. I left you thinking that I didnt need you and you didnt matter no more but the truth is that each passing day is a testament of my love, with each passing moment I look back at all the memmories we shared together and how beautiful they were and how I would give my life away to live it all again and love you in the right way.

The only wealth left in my life is your love, its the searing pain that I am left with, nothing to put an end to this agony, nothing can fill the void that you have left over me.. I blame myself completely for all that has happened and all that has been done, you had very little to do with it all I guess, all I blame you for is not fighting for the relation, maybe I wasnt important enough, maybe I wasnt the right person. Many have come and gone but the only one to ever leave a mark in my heart is you, just you only, no one can take that space, no one can fill that void, I guess I deserve this, for all that Ive done to you maybe this is the best punishment for me..

I know you never shed a tear for me but I swear not a day goes by when I dont look at you wishing that you would come back to me and try to work things out between us. I still think about you every night, still wait each day for a single message from you.

I know you will never read this, this is me talking to myself trying to convince myself that youll never be back. I have done a lot just to catch a glimpse of you and see how you are doing but to no avail..

I wish I had some other way to tell you, I wish I could talk to you and tell you how I still feel and how youre my one n only.. Life doesnt give second chances and all I can pray now is for your hapiness and I pray to God that you are happy wherever you are smiling beautifully just like you did and living a fulfilling life whereas I have nothing but fond memmories of you to live by.. I think I have enough to last me a lifetime.. If you read this which I know you never will just please know that I never wanted to hurt you never meant to disappoint you Im sorry for all I did and please forgive me if you ever can.. Please get in touch with me even if it for the very last time, my life is nothing without you :(