Dreamer

I cant believe the fact that you still seem to be placed inside my head, I may not access that part of my brain anymore but I find it very surprising to know that you are still engulfed in my thoughts and have reserved a spot somewhere in my conscious and subconscious mind. I could simply not believe it that I still dream about you, your image being nothing but a grim reflection but still strongly feeling your presence. It was an uncomfortable dream, something that I hoped was true but alas it isnt. Made me quite comfortable, woke me up from my sleep half at night and I have yet to find that peace within me. Senseless, restless and unreasonable are just some of the things I have become. It cruel how our mind really keeps us trapped in the times that are a pain to live through, each passing moment like a spear through the heart.

A year and a half passed and I saw you just last week and ever since it has been a battle of the mind and the heart but oh well, these are just the ramifications of the senseless thread of hope that I cling to for reasons unknown... Maybe someday Ill find a concrete conclusion to this never ending tale but for now these mindless thoughts continue....