#20-

There is no market for your sorrows.

So never advertise your feelings

#19- A Dire Desire

The pretentious imagination wished to live in the dubious place that is within the grasp of the monetized world.

All that used to be worth something is now nothing but a mere façade in the thoughts of the people. When true love was cherished were the days of the past and seem too vague for the imagination to even consider heading down the treacherous path. The memories locked in the threshold of the mind are all that is left of you and they abate and testify that you were present in this place and you had taken the throne of the heart which ruled every nerve of this man. 

The marks that you have left behind are yet to be filled with the horrendous time and dust that will follow after you have left this heart deserted. In comparative to the greats who had nothing but love in their lives, my motive, my aspirations was all to give all the pleasantries and all the happiness that you could endow upon yourself. I worked constantly to portray the imagery of the heart to you but you left ne baffled with the amount of neglect that you bestowed upon me. 

These thoughts keep me awake at night reminiscing the fact that is this the worth, the core value of the thoughts you have for me. Is this the unbiased and unconditional response I deserve for letting you into this heart which is now a mere organ just to be as numb as can be…..….

#18- Yours forever

It almost seemed magical yesterday and you also agreed. It felt like there was nothing else in this world except for me and you. It seemed as if the world around had stopped for a moment and only you and I were the ones who lived alone. We shared our laughter and we shared our sorrows, Im amazed how much alike we are, I was shaking with happiness and you were content. We both know what was going on but I was just too excited to let it all sync in.

Once again my whole life flashed before me and it seemed so bleak without you, what I experience today, I have never felt such a thing in my whole life. What would I do without you? I hope to never experience such a thing and I hope to never lose you. I hope to never let you out of my sight. I wish for us both to go as far as the world may take us. Maybe till the eternity, maybe till the last moments of my life, maybe till the time that I close my eyes.

I want to die before you because I could never imagine of living alone in this world, I know you might cry, I know you will weep at my grave, but I would smile and look at you from above and be happy that you cared for me even after Im gone. Those tears of yours are no less worthy than diamonds, they are precious so never waste them they are what I never want to see in your eyes.  I would never live another day If I saw a tear in your eyes. 

#17- Let me know

Let me know or let me go....

I am tired of waiting hours for you....
I am tired of dying each day..
I am tired of missing you...
I am tired of these sleepless nights...
I am tired of feeling ignored...
I am tired of feeling so low....
I am tired of being your option...
I am tired of letting you rule my heart....
I am tired of wanting you in my life...
I am tired of weeping for your sight....
I am tired of missing the moments that seem so bright...


I have always shown my love and affection to you... you dont seem to think that I am being honest... I did everything that I could...
I want to make you the best part of my life
I have given up everything for you
I have surrendered all things just for you..
I can let my world go to waste just so I can be with you...

Will you be mine??? Without you I will shatter to pieces.

*N.A*

Someday I wish for you to read all these things that I wrote in your honor and you will see for yourself how true and honest my love is...

#16- Till the last breath

If my eyes close forever...
Just remember that you were the only one that lived inside them...

If my heart stops tomorrow...
just remember that you were the only one this heart used to beat for....

If my breath stops tomorrow...
Just remember that I thought of you every time I breathed...

If my blood starts to flow..
Just remember that its your love that used to run through my veins...

Just always remember that I loved you with my heart and soul up until the time that I could not win the battle of love and life at the same time.... but just remember that I loved you till my last breath....

#15- Only You

I can be all that you want me to be..
I can give you all the things that you need...
I can bring the world to your feet..
I can make it rain happiness..
I can make you feel loved..
I can give you the whole wide world..
I can let you be my only one...
I can be your heart and soul...

I have loved you from the very start....
I have made you my life..
I have made you my reason for life...
Without you I dont know what I would do
Without you I dont know how I would breathe
You mean so much to me...

I promise to never break your heart
I promise to always love you true
I promise to love you with all my heart...
I promise to love you for all that you are

I can not imagine my life without you...
I dont know why you dont realise the amount of love I have for you...
I dont know why you cant see how much I love you...

All I need is just this once chance..
I promise to never let you down.
I wont ever let you shed a tear...
Ill make you the happiest girl in the world..

Please be mine... That is all I pray.
All I want in this life is  you..

#14- FOREVER

What is it that still holds me back?
             Is it the fact that I loved you too much or is it the fact that your rejection shattered me...

What am I still so uneasy?
             When I know that I did everything possible to make you mine...

Why do you still come in my dreams?
             When you clearly stated that I mean nothing to you...

Why do I still cry?
              When I know that there is no way left for me to get inside your heart...

Why cant I be in peace?
               When you closed all doors for me...

I know that i have no right to demand answers from you... When clearly my tears are worth nothing for you....

Its quite true what the world says.. Never expect anything from anyone but your beauty forced me to love you ..Every time you ignore me it feels like an arrow went through my heart..
Do you not realize that there is no one I love in this world as much as you?
You walked over my feelings like I dont feel a thing..

Why am I being punished?
              The only sin I have committed is falling in love with you and I will LOVE YOU forever..... No matter what you say.....
*N.A*

#13- Stranger

She said 'I dont know you"
And I guess she is right....
The day I set my eyes on her I realized
I dont know myself either
I dont know how I fell so hard for you
I dont know how I changed so much after your presence in my life
I dont know how this heart learned to love so dearly
i dont know why your ignorance affects me so much
I dont know how you became my destiny
I dont know how I changed so much

I really dont know

These words that came out of your mouth really changed my life
They really showed me that one does not get all that he wishes for

After you came in my life
My life's mission changed
My perspective changed
I dont know if seeing you was the best thing that happened in my life or the worst because you changed me
I wasnt made to love
I wasnt prepared to love
You taught me what love is
Your beauty forced me to fall in love
I dont know whether to thank you for melting my heart or should I hate you for leaing this heart high and dry

You really dont know me
because if you did, you would know how much I love you
How strong are the feelings i possess
How incoherent is the feeling of watching your loved one mocking your emotions
I just hope that one day you realize how much love I have for you....
But like I said "You really dont know me"
You want to know who I am?
I am the only person in this world that can love you more than anybody else in the whole universe..

*N.A*

#12- Magical Love

What we had was magical
Our love was built on trust and friendship
How we understood each other was extra ordinary

Being able to understand each other without saying a word is what true love is all about.
It feels like the dust has settles and with it the love has also disappeared.
It came like the Summer's wind, refreshing and cool but left like autumn's leaves, dry and roughed up
I look upon the sky which is covered by dark clouds
Indulging myself in the beautiful weather thinking about you and my love for you.

A raindrop fell on my cheek, maybe it was a sign from above, I took that rain drop and gave it a kiss, hoping that the rain drop was sent from you.

When I was  with you, All seasons seemed yet too beautiful and now they seem just as empty as my life these days

When it rains, it seems like the perfect time for me to shed my tears so that no one can see what the heart feels...
*N.A*

#11 What you mean to me

You are my heart and Soul
You are my only hope
You are my first and last love
You are my brightened world
You are the summer's breeze
You are the brightest star
You are my life so far
You are the first ray of sunshine
You are the only one I love
You are the one I want to spend the rest of my life with
You are the girl whom I pictured as my life partner.

*N.A*

#10 My Dream

My dream is to make you happy each day for the rest of your life
My dream is to give you all the things in life that you wished for
My dream is to make you the happiest woman in the world
My dream is to hold hands with you and watch the sun set behind the ocean
My dream is to fade away all your worries

What worries me the most is that
What if my dreams only stay dreams and not become a reality
I would give it all away just to make you smile
Your smile is the life of my soul
Your smile is the driving force of my life
And just for your smile... I would do anything

You may not like me
You may not love me
And ill lie with this fact if it makes you happy

This was the first and the last time this heart has loved anyone because there is no one else as perfect for me
This might be a fragment of your imagination but me and my love are both real and never ending.
It was God's will that we were not meant to be together and maybe I might not be the right person for you.... Maybe you deserve someone better who may love you but I can bet that you will never find someone who loves you as much as I do..

Wherever in this world you may be
You will always have my prayers and bestwises
Just always stay happy thinking that someone's life depends on it.

*N.A*

#9 Wait

I wait by the sand firmly gripping the ground so that I do not drift away from your life or thoughts.

I wait for you to acknowledge my love and give me an answer so that you never question the amount of love I have for your.

I wait patiently for your acceptance or atleast an answer so that the agonizing pain can end

I wait for the moments of care that we might share together

I wait for the laughs and the cries we will go through

I wait for the good times that will come between us.

I just wait for you to let me into our world just so I can show you how much I love and care for you.

Whenever you look back in need of a friend. Ill be right there by your side to help you every step of the way.
Even if it takes the rest of my life.. I WILL WAIT FOR YOU.

*N.A*

#8 Moment

I have waited all my life for this moment

The moment where I can make you mine
The day I can talk to your heart
The second when I can see you smile
The day when I can see you smile
The day when I can call you my own
The time when I can be your soul

I wait to hear your voice
I linger to be your friend
I want to be the reason for your smile
I want to be the best part of your life
I dream to be your loved one

I stare at the sun which is slowly trying to hide behind the stream of water as if it wants to run away from me
Telling me to let go of my dreams in the darkness that is slowly covering the sky, making my world as dark as the night sky

I look at this dark night which has removed every ray of light from the sky and my heart. In the midst of it all, I see a brightly shining star similar to the one shining in my heart.

Maybe, Im the one who made the best mistake of my life by falling in love with you but I promise to love you with every breath of mine till the last time I breathe on my death bed.

You are my world and my world starts and ends with you. This heart of mine only has a place for you and no one else.

I have waited for you and I will wait for you for the rest of my life.

*N.A*

#7 Future

I love the way you understand me
I love the way we connect
I love how you care about me
I love how you realize my feelings
I love the moments that we share together
I love how your smile makes my day
I love how you have become my center of attention
I love how we both interact
I simply love YOU

Sometimes I wonder if this is all a dream or a reality because if it is indeed a dream, then I never want to wake up from it.

When I saw you, I understood what love really is,
A sweet sensation for the mind and the heart
and this heart mine is yours forever

Please, never play with it because I really do love you... :'(
*N.A*

#6 Memmories

I stand here all alone with nothing but your sweet memories
Stranded in this trance with no chance of an escape
Lost in the weary past that was meant to last forever

I gaze upon the picture I have of you and my heart skips a beat when your thought comes to mind
Indulging in your beauty seems like the only sensible option
I Imagine the days when we were a world apart, but now it seems that each moment that goes by
without you will rip me apart.

I want whats best for you even if it means being away from me.
That smile on your face is all I need to go on with lige
I love you and thats the most beautiful mistake I have ever made
But you dont have to do the same, because you deserve the best
and the finest things in life.
*N.A*

#5 N-A

Loving you may be the frivolity of my childhood
                         Or
the aspiration of adulthood

It may be the misconception of the mind
                        Or
the reality of the heart

It may be an infatuation
                        Or
the dire tender love that has just blossomed

It could be an act of fooling you
                         Or
It could be the pure emotions running through my veins

It may be an act of treachery
                          Or
My sincere desire to make you mine. Forever

My true feelings speak on my behalf, true love doesn't need to be expressed
When in love, the heart speaks for itself.
*N.A*

#4 Obsession

She took over my heart like the dark clouds take over the sky
She captured my soul like a predator on the hunt
She took away my sleep like it isnt necessary
She invaded my dreams like she was the only one I should think of
She became my life's mission like it was her whom I had to win in this life
She made me restless, but for her I can give this life away
No sacrifice is too big and no battle is too hard

*N.A*

#3 Betrayed

What made you go away from me?
Why did you not give me a chance to prove myself and my love?
Why did you treat me like a toy and throw me away?
Was I not good enough for you?
Was it something I did?
Or Was it something I said?

These are the questions this heart seeks an answer for
I wish I could ask you these questions
I wish I could just hold you in my arms and fade away your sorrows
I wish that we could settle into our own little world
Each shooting star I come across, I wish for you
I fight hard to hold back the tears but with each passing moment
the feeling gets stronger and my heart starts to get heavy
I wish that you may find out someday that Ive cried for you
but even then I pray for your health and prosperity.
Look into my heart someday, ill show you all the wounds that you gave me.....
*N.A*

#2- Your Beauty

The Sparkle in the eyes that caught my attention,
The bright smile that lit my whole world
The innocence that made me dwell
The voice that made my heart skip a beat....
The gestures that left me breathless,
The questions that left me baffled

Was all you!

Leaving me at the mercy of these sleepless nights
Its your thoughts that keep me awake
That smile is what leaves me restless
The beauty that relinquishes my senses
The thoughts of you by my side makes me
want to stay awake for the rest of my life,
just so I can watch you sleep.
*N.A*

#1- A new beginning

Ok non existent audience, the first post of the first blog. Dont know why ive started this but lets see where it goes. I've made this blog because of someone really special, someone that means a lot to me, the one whom I love dearly but who isnt mine.. Maybe she will be one day but until then, I need this blog, because like a true friend The blog is a very good listener.